I've debated for a long time about whether or not to put these pages up, whether it's contrary to the work I've done toward healing. I've decided that it isn't. It's through the writings of the others that I have learned to understand myself, and I share these writings with you as an encouragement and, perhaps, as a way of helping you to understand yourself or someone you know. Over the years, my views on "integration" have shifted. At times I have focused solely on integration as an end that must be achieved because being "multiple" is "abnormal" or societally wrong. At other times, I have felt that this places entirely too much focus on how my mind is working instead of what it is doing, and at the end of the day it is what I've done and what that means for the life that I lead that matters. At the end of life, I'm the one who has to be happy with who I have been; and I don't get a chance to do it over. So I let the others write because it allows me to do what I do in daily life. Maybe it makes me eccentric. Every so often, I fight the same battle about whether or not I should take the site down or alter the terminology--maybe there is nothing "wrong" with me and I should stop identifying as "disordered" simply because I handle my thoughts and experiences in this way. In any case, here are some snippets.